It's time to tell all.

A few of you know that I checked into the hospital this week to run some tests. Let me start off by saying, everything is fine.

It's all a little complicated, but let me try to explain. 

When I was 13, I had a strange infection that required surgery. I was in the ICU for almost a month because the infection had spread so much before doctors were able to figure out what was going on.
The infection was very close to my uterus, and because of it, the doctors told me I might not ever be able to have kids.

So when Jeff and I got married, we started trying for kids at an early period, preparing ourselves for the worst. After trying for almost 2 years, we began to face facts - I was infertile, and we wouldn't be able to have any kids of our own.

It was hard. As much as we loved the alone time, it was hard to see so many of our friends who seemed to be popping out babies left and right, sometimes even without trying. Jeff is so amazing with kids, and he wanted to be a father so much that it would break my heart to see him with other kids.

So with a lot of heartache, I went to the doctor to get back on birth control. But at the appointment, I was amazed to find that I was already 2 months pregnant, with our amazing, incredible, little miracle. Jeff and I were so amazed, that we both just couldn't stop crying. I actually ran around telling total strangers that I was pregnant!

But because of the past surgery I had, I'm in pain a lot. At first I thought that it was just normal, and that pregnancy would be painful in general, but my doctors were concerned that something else was going on, so they admitted me to the hospital for tests. All of the tests came back normal. Maddie is totally healthy and strong. I'm just going to continue to experience a constant cramping because of my past surgery.

Does it suck to be in this pain, all of the time? yes. 

But I would take on any amount of pain to have her in our lives. She is the answer to our prayers. And she is just so amazing. She's our miracle.